my brain is being drained

i feel like killing myself. sitting in biz comm class now. the class presentation was just rubbish. every time i'm in school, i just become depressed. sigh. when people open their mouths, i feel like stabbing myself or banging my head against the wall. i cannot believe that this is happening to me.

it's been one year. 365 days actually. cos this year's a leap year. 365 days. 525600 minutes. one wasted year of my life. i keep asking myself, why why why didnt i go to london. why why why why why why why why why why why why why. i need out. i'm so depressed. i just feel like crying. sigh. sob sob sob.

kill me now someone. just kill me. nothing can be worse than studying here. just kill me. don't come telling me i could be worse off born in sudan. i'm talking about my context. nothing can be worse. just kill me.