"i will be nicer to u from now on"

when those words were uttered to me, i was literally stunned. actually makes everything worthwhile. my life isnt so bad after all. hahahahaha. thank you for that my friend. thank you.

while on the friendship front, my life seems to be looking up, the rest of my life seems to be crumbling. two nights ago, i made a renewed commitment to stay in the school till the end of this sem at least. but omg. i am dying. i'm quite prepared for my cap to go straight down below the hons level. i dunno what to do. every time i'm in the school, i just feel miserable. sigh. had quite a long talk with liang yuan just now. we are the top 1% of our cohort. 38,379 babies born. with our A level results, we're quite easily part of the top 384 in singapore in our cohort (maybe i'm part of the top 1.5% but liang yuan is definitely top 1%). and i'm in nus. where the probably the 50th percentile of the 1986 cohort studies as well. i'm dying. i really am. i feel so stunted. i really cannot take it. the best and the brightest go overseas...except aaron chew. :( :( :'( :"( :'"( :""(

i want to kill myself.

darian eeeeeeeeeeeee....where are u? i have not heard from u for three days! are u all right?!