Sunday, September 7, 2008

the end of the tunnel

sarah palin is starting to sway me. she's a good christian, her son is going to be deployed in iraq, she has a pregnant teenage daughter. she is more down-to-earth than your usual politicians. u usually associate these pple with the democrats but sarah palin is a republican. i was a staunch democrat. but hillary clinton lost the nomination. if mccain wins, hillary can have another run in four years. honestly, i don't like either obama or mccain. mccain seems like a weak leader (from his voice...he seems really old). obama seems like a clueless leader. between joe biden and sarah palin, sarah palin gets my vote hands down. hmmm...if i had the vote (which i dont cos i'm not american), i might just go republican. shocking!!

i know the end of the tunnel exists. and i know there's light at the end of the tunnel. but i just can't see it. school is worse than ever. i think i fell sick because school is so sick. i'm seriously very sick. coughing like mad.

darian is leaving next sunday. which is exactly one week from now. well, and five hours more. but still!!! i'm absolutely utterly depressed. i cannot even begin to express how depressed i feel. very very very depressed. there will be noone to have high tea with me, to go to asia grand with me, to put me on guest lists at clubs, to go clubbing with me, to go for fashion shows with me, to go for concerts with me, to bring me to china club, to shop at posh places with me, to buy me nice stuff from the likes of calvin klein, armani, hugo boss etc...omg the list goes on and on and on and on and on. omg. i'm so depressed.

my life is depressing. the usual remedies have kicked in. food-obsession has resulted in me putting a little weight on. ministry-obsession has sapped all my time away from studies. alcohol-obsession has come (and hopefully gone). retail-obsession is likely to start tmr when i go get darian's farewell gift. getting fat, studies down the drain, broke. it cannot get much worse. why is my life so horrible? why why why why why???

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