i really don't want to go home

tomorrow is my last working day with dulwich. it's been 9 weeks. amazing how time flies! and i realised once again, that i don't want to back to singapore. i always feel so stifled and suffocated in singapore. it's a place where my aspirations are usually killed and dreams are buried. sighs.

dulwich has been really good to me. apparently, my boss who interviewed me didn't expect me to accept the job, since according to her, i seem very qualified from the looks of my cv. because of dulwich, i had to prematurely turn down another company (a big listed company) cos i had already accepted the offer to come to shanghai.

the working experience has just been amazing. the colleagues are nice, my boss rocks, i got to work directly with the chairman on the project that became the centre of my work life for the month of august - the soon to be launched qiao18.com! please visit the site from next monday onwards, especially people who need to brush up on their chinese.

well, on going back to singapore. i am really excited to meet my family. i'm really excited to meet yujie who has told me he's excited to meet me too. :) excited to meet friends like xiu whom i haven't seen since the beginning of the year. but i'm not so excited about the rest of the package. i will have to move back home. over here i get to live by myself. gonna be so different.

i miss church so much. it's indescribable really. but having said that, i love my routine here. work, gym, leisure, meeting people, watching church online service. i dont know if i can adapt back to the high commitment level of the church once again.

when overseas, i'm usually stronger. i can handle being alone. i can explore the place and travel alone. but at home, i'm different.

i need to plan my next escape. i can't bear the thought of staying in singapore for too long. london 2010? dubai/abu dhabi 2010? american east coast 2010? american west coast 2010? hmmmmmm....

well, before i go back to singapore, seb's coming to shanghai this weekend! woohoo! i'm quite excited. shanghai may be quite boring. but we're going to travel! i'm really looking forward to going to qingdao. apparently tsingtao beer (which is already my favourite beer in the world) is even nicer in qingdao itself. oh man, exciting!

i remember when seb arrived in beijing in april, i told him, "u're very lucky, it's spring, the flowers have just opened." he replied, "open your head la! bloomed!" i was totally like OMG...i've stayed in china for toooo long. it was the lowest point in my english-speaking life. hope this time it'll be better.